Home Alone

This is the first time we booked a space for the sole purpose of filming and it definitely was an experience that has taught us so much about ourselves. We've been navigating our sex life, both learning and unlearning our personal histories and habits with bodies, sex, intimacy, and performance. One of the topics that comes up a lot is who gets to cum, why an orgasm is necessary, and who gets to decide. Z has a higher sex drive, and he gets cranky when he doesn't get to cum. For him, sex is about love, intimacy, and getting his rocks off. I could have sex 0 times in a year, or 5 times a day. I can get myself off in 2 minutes, or hold off for days. For me, sex is about performance and my partner. Between the two of us, we get to meet in the middle. While he learns to slow down, and sometimes go without cumming, I learn how to give myself over to passion and get vulnerable. Spoiler, we both get to cum in this session ;). This is Part 1 of 2, just under 40min (and 5GB).

Z was on his way out the door when I grazed up against him and he was immediately hard.. so pretty soon my pants came off and his too. We had been talking about filming for a while so I took out my phone, and within 10 or so minutes both of us came, ladies first of course.

I knew Kacey when we were 15. We were too young to do much about it. Fast forward more than 10 years later we found ourselves in each other's lives. He's still making music and I'm still making art.

I woke Z up with a cuddle, and he was rock hard, even though he came the night before his cock was begging to be inside me. We had about 10-15 minutes off camera where I was teasing him, asking him to multi-task, quizzing him with problem solving tasks. This turned me on so much, because I could see the struggle in him, trying to redirect the blood to his brain, rather than his nether regions. Finally, he gives in and asks me if he can fuck me really intensely. I say "Yes please! but let me grab the camera!".. so I set up the phone while he's keeping himself hard. This is where the scene starts. The rest of it, is me directing the poses, while I ask him to rap for me. Hearing his voice turns me on so much. I'm lazily fucking him, and then when he has me on top, I tell him that I want to suck his "post-cum" into my mouth. He's always told me his biggest fantasy is to cum into my mouth, and I've never let anyone do that... He has a huge load, so I surprised him in this video asking to suck him off and swallow after his first spurt.

What started off as a sweet kiss that I wanted to capture, devolved into a full-on messy fight, that eventually morphed into a forceful and intense fucking. The video is a total of 8m15s and it's two people navigating how to be authentic in front of the camera, and with one another. We had a really great date day filled with sushi, ice cream, and sunshine. Then as we got home I was on the phone and Zeke came by looking for attention. I put down my phone to look at him, and then we shared a very intimate kiss that ignited my senses. In my efforts to recapture that moment, I found myself in this blind rage and unable to communicate what I wanted. Zeke was so tired at the time that after round 3 of filming the kiss he started to really get frustrated. Now with the two of us frustrated sweet intimacy was off the table so I started getting bratty, pushy, bossy and forceful. I started trying to egg him on, telling him to wreck me. At first he didn't want to, and then he finally gives me what I ask for. He told me later that adrenaline rushed him and his heart started pounding and it really energized him. In the bedroom we have a lot of different power dynamics. In this video, I'm a bratty sub that wants a loving daddy to spoil her. Yet, at the same even as he's pounding me you can see how much he loves me and listens to me. Even though he didn't want to finish, the moment I suggest for him to spill his seed, he does it at my command. I wanted to share this video to show how "the bedroom" (or well the couch) can be a safe space to play out some really regressive and bad behaviours in a more enjoyable context. Sorry for the phone quality! Soon we'll put in effort to make some cinematographic scenes, but for now, the focus is on our own dynamic and not for the viewers.