LilithX

Content warning: injury, car crash.

During August I was away from my partner, and thinking of him lots. I had lots of ideas for things we could do when we saw each other again. I even invested in a few new sex toys, getting them sent to our home address where he was rather than where I'm staying at my relatives house. I was supposed to be joining my partner (and the toys) back home about a week later, but unfortunately our plans changed dramatically.

A bad car crash resulted in a trip to the hospital. My partner came up and joined me, and has been amazing with his support. I was discharged from the hospital quite quickly, and I headed back to my relatives house.

Remarkably, only a week or so after the incident, my hormones spiked again and I was feeling horny. We had a very gentle time together just using hands, although I think I was feeling just a bit too bruised to completely relax, it felt good and comforting.

I had been thinking about sharing more videos, as I've found it quite liberating and have really enjoyed the response. But my plans needed to adapt. I can not physically get into some of the positions I was fantasising of recording, because my cracked ribs are allowing no bending, and I only have one functional hand, so using two toys at once is out of the question. I wasn't even sure if my body would respond in the way I was wanting. It has been, and still is going through a lot!

So I thought I'd record my attempts. My exploration into pleasure in the midst of pain - finding what feels good for me right now, as a form of self care. This was my first try. I honestly didn't think I would orgasm, but I wanted to chart the journey. That seems to be what mlnp is. The sharing of sex within the context of life, not separated from it. #realworldsex

I was imagining a few videos edited into one - sort of a Masturbation Montage to illustrate the relearning and reclaiming of my body. But I'm happy with my latest video as it is. Partially because I came, but also because I had to figure out what felt good with only one hand and no toys (I had become somewhat reliant on them), and the way I would normally play my clit was making my ribs complain so I found a new way that felt good.

Oh, in case you were wondering, the sex toys I ordered were delivered while my partner was up with me. So either my neighbour has received that delivery for us, or someone sneaky spotted a parcel on our doorstep and is now the owner of a beginners set of butt plugs 🤣🤣 both possibilities are making me chuckle!