Hanging on the Edge

Lube me up, Keke! One night we were laying in bed about to play and Cinna told me to “slow down or I’m going to cum soon” and something about that made me want to NOT slow down. But he wanted me to ride him then, so I asked him to promise I could make a video where I get him off without expecting anything in return. I turned it into a Cinna Night and pampered him with a FULL body massage. It was so much fun making his leg twitch and watching his balls get taught as he was getting close. However, it took a little more than elbow grease…

All I’ve wanted the past week is sex. I’ve been insatiable. Today I just wanted my tits rubbed. I had to do it myself - not the same, but I still did great, I think!

I don’t have a car so I use a grocery shopping and delivery service, so I don’t usually see the produce that the shopper picks out unless I ask them to send a picture. It was to my surprise that the bananas the shopper picked out were nearly the size of my head. Now, a little bit of back story: this isn’t the first produce I’ve played with. Back before I could buy my own sex toys I had many a hot, passionate night with a cucumber or two. Since then I have obviously used sex toys when the occasion arose, so this was fun and exciting. Even at that, the banana peel decided play time was over before I could finish. It’s been a sexually frustrating week…I can’t wait to share when all this orgasm build up finally blows ;)

What started on the couch after I squeezed myself into an old corset from my burlesque days, got hot and naughty as it moved to the room. Something about putting on the fishnets with no underwear, maybe it was the way it lightly rubbed against my labia made my pussy trickle it’s juices down to part my soft lips. It made me tear through the fishnets so I could touch my yearning vulva. As soon as I got in front of my mirror in the bedroom it turned something on in me. The need to talk dirty…I guess to my toy cock I so badly wanted to use. Verbalizing every fantasy that popped into my head to do to my cock-friend, until I reached an amazing orgasm. The fun wasn’t over yet. We had some cleaning up to do. I felt the most efficient way was to use my mouth and throat until my toyfriend was completely satisfied ;)

Let me tell you this was a long wank for me. I don’t know if it’s hormones or stress…but I have been struggling to orgasm completely for weeks. I thought “let’s put on the new collar/nipple rings and slap your clit around a bit”. And since I recently found this riding crop when I was decluttering, I figured I’d use it. I don’t know how much of it got left in, but I started fantasizing about orgasm control and start talking dirty to myself…Hehe

I haven’t been in a very sexy mood lately, so it was to my surprise that I went to bed horny last night and woke up in the same state. That wasn’t the only surprise!!! While I thought I was going to have a nice long, slow passionate session with myself - I had time before needing to get ready for work - my orgasm came fairly quick and unexpectedly for when it did. Who else gets insanely horny in the morning?

I couldn’t get enough toys inside me this time. I wanted to feel fuller than full. All holes spread and plugged. I think I ruined my orgasm with my anal toy in because after I took the toy out of my ass I couldn’t get close anymore. *tear* would you punish me for that ruin or would you try harder to make me cum?

Sexting with my across-country friend who loves anal always gets me feeling this way. It’s too bad I don’t have a regular source of anal sex to train myself into my accidentally too-big toy, but I try it every once in a while. Can still only get the tip in….womp womp. Also… I’m not often up for anal penetration on its own, but the anal/clit combo makes for an awesome orgasm!

I took a vacation day from work and it was a fabulous day for me…FULL of self love. I looked great after my haircut and I felt sexy, so I made Cinna eat me out when he got home from work/before his date night with his other fwb (no sex because it’s her turn tonight). I was still super horny and sexed up when he left so I decided to continue to treat my sexy self by reapplying my lipstick from the day’s look, filling both holes and showing off all of my assets from the front and the back.

I've been in edging forums lately and I am really loving being part of that community. It's sexy and horny & self control and loss of control - all at once, all things great. I thought I'd try my hand at giving some (Jerk Off Instructions (JOI) to a long-distance edging buddy (LDEB). Instead of sending them porn or only moaning for their sake, I edged myself to an eventual orgasm. Along with the instructions, I sent my LDEB the pictures at the beginning of the video while giving them their JOI to help them reach their edge without sending them over it. With edging - for most, not all - the emphasis is not on the orgasm, but the built up pleasure experienced with the anticipation of orgasm. I made this video after day 6 of not cumming, and it was unreal! See for yourself. ;)