Wanking the memory lane - debut

I have always loved masturbation (but who doesn't ?) and my stimulation during these very rewarding moments has always been partly visual. I also fantasises about partners I don’t have or sexual acts I don’t practice often like anal sex. But the main stimulation remains visual. I have been exposed to nude pictures at a very early stage of my sexual life and a kind of fetish/fascination/obsession was borne and never left me. I came to enjoy and practice photography at the very same period of my life and had always a hidden desire of producing by myself the pictures which triggered my sexual excitement. Becoming a sex artist (a pornographer in the literal non-judgmental meaning) became possible for me only at a late stage of my life because I feared social stigmatisation which could have jeopardized my capacity to find employment. I worked in short terms assignments until the age 51. Video recording my wanking session became possible with the emergence of digital cameras. I remember some early shootings back to 2005. Most of my pre MLNP sex videos were meant to create long distance intimacy. It took me a while to accept my own wanking as a positive erotic sight. Despite being completely bisexual, I find male solo a bit boring even if the sight of an erected penis is something I feel exciting. To produce something that I feel visually exciting, I started to mix my present solo shootings with pictures and videos of a sometimes distant past. I find the process very rewarding artistically and sexually. It is a kink I like to explore. I am a nylon fetishist and I dress often with stockings and leggings to get aroused and feel more aesthetic. I am interested to open discussions about it. I am aware that I may be diverting the point of view of the initial intention of “real sex life and not performed one” to a more complex exploration of my libido where past and present, memories and sensations, desires and satisfactions mix and produce a deep personal emotional and sexual reward. Thanks to these who read so far. Enjoy the view and don’t hesitate to comment, but politely please.