Overc(um)ing My Struggle

I couldn’t get enough toys inside me this time. I wanted to feel fuller than full. All holes spread and plugged. I think I ruined my orgasm with my anal toy in because after I took the toy out of my ass I couldn’t get close anymore. *tear* would you punish me for that ruin or would you try harder to make me cum?

I've been in edging forums lately and I am really loving being part of that community. It's sexy and horny & self control and loss of control - all at once, all things great. I thought I'd try my hand at giving some (Jerk Off Instructions (JOI) to a long-distance edging buddy (LDEB). Instead of sending them porn or only moaning for their sake, I edged myself to an eventual orgasm. Along with the instructions, I sent my LDEB the pictures at the beginning of the video while giving them their JOI to help them reach their edge without sending them over it. With edging - for most, not all - the emphasis is not on the orgasm, but the built up pleasure experienced with the anticipation of orgasm. I made this video after day 6 of not cumming, and it was unreal! See for yourself. ;)

I found this mask that I crafted to use on my sexy accounts. I know you all know my face already, but a little mystery from time to time is always fun! Also, if you’re new here and this is my first video you’ve rented, welcome and enjoy the mystery <3 the colour scheme of red and black has always made me feel badass and fucking hot anyways. I’ve really been enjoying anal sex and anal play again lately. It helps to have a lot more knowledge and proper equipment to make anal play a lot more comfortable, too. I was trying to edge myself while double penetrated, but it’s so hard and I get so weak when there’s something inside my tight ass. When the toy slid out of my ass, I was just so desperate to have it back in…phew. That’s what pushed me over…oops. I didn’t mean to cum when I did…but c’est la vie! Until the next orgasm ;)

I was interrupted while getting ready for work by the thoughts of a sex dream I’d woken up from that morning. I don’t remember much of the details while writing this, but I do remember seeing myself laid out with my legs open and my wet pussy exposed to the air while I begged to the point of crying to be fucked, touched, cocked…I could feel the yearning in my dream. I don’t even know that I got the sex I was whimpering for, I just know it made me incredibly horny. ^_^ Update: I told the person who the dream was about and he sent me a picture of his hard cock. I’m just giddy. And more horny thinking about it.

Sexting with my across-country friend who loves anal always gets me feeling this way. It’s too bad I don’t have a regular source of anal sex to train myself into my accidentally too-big toy, but I try it every once in a while. Can still only get the tip in….womp womp. Also… I’m not often up for anal penetration on its own, but the anal/clit combo makes for an awesome orgasm!

Today I worked from home, but luck would have it that my laptop had to do an update and then crashed. I thought “might as well have a little bit of fun while I wait” It’s been a few days since I’ve gotten off and honestly, I get so horny during my period…visuals not really needed to assist in that department right now. As you’ll see, I still use them (some fave Reddit posts - specifically r/RuinedOrgasm) I didn’t mean to ruin my orgasm, but it sometimes just happens when I’m watching others get ruined. I tried to make up for it by continuing to use my dildo on myself and achieve an orgasm, but I failed at that, too. I should be working, but all work and no play makes Keke a dull girl ;) I will definitely be trying again for that O later!!!

I don’t have a car so I use a grocery shopping and delivery service, so I don’t usually see the produce that the shopper picks out unless I ask them to send a picture. It was to my surprise that the bananas the shopper picked out were nearly the size of my head. Now, a little bit of back story: this isn’t the first produce I’ve played with. Back before I could buy my own sex toys I had many a hot, passionate night with a cucumber or two. Since then I have obviously used sex toys when the occasion arose, so this was fun and exciting. Even at that, the banana peel decided play time was over before I could finish. It’s been a sexually frustrating week…I can’t wait to share when all this orgasm build up finally blows ;)

When Cinna texted me "I'm going to cum inside you and film it" I was instantly excited to be home from work. Part 1: Cinna eats Keke out until she cums Part 2: The sex and a creamy surprise ;)

The sun was shining into my bedroom beautifully. It was inspiring lighting annd it made me want to create! I’m also training my anus for a monster of a plug that I bought not realizing the size. You can see how tight it is and how much I still have to go, and you can see my pretty pussy petals reaching toward the sun after I cum hard with the toy in my ass.

I am very excited and extremely grateful to introduce Master, my new, and first, Dom that I will be filming with once in a while :3 This was our second meet up, but the chemistry was instant when we matched on a dating app, and even though the connection was more than physical, we both have an agreement that Master will only message his slut (me) when he wants to use my holes. I am typically a submissive person in the bedroom and that's not something I can get from Cinna. Enter Master, who is in a polyam relationship. I fill a role in his life as his slut and he fills, well, all my holes. *drool* This gives me a chance for more anal sex and actual deepthroating practice; if you don't use it you do, in fact, lose it..as you might notice, and my apologies for that, but to keep it real, I didn't want to edit it out. Since a sub/dom relationship is new for me to do in person, he has been going easy with me until I ease into the role a bit more, but one thing he was eager to do was cum in my ass, as he has claimed it as his. I think this forest romp makes it official. I did a good job, so Master said I could cum on my own...I have yet to accomplish that since he dropped me off. The next morning update: Master filled me up so deep and full that a full 14 hours later it was still dripping and gushing out of me. Next time I see Master won't be for a little bit and I'm sad, but that just means the anticipation will be heightened and I'll be more desperate for Master's glorious cock. xoxo