The one where I can't come

This is the little dildo that came as part of a pegging set, and I was curious to see how it could be used in other ways. You'll see me trying it for the first time; playing around with different angles and positions until I find what feels good with the help of my trusty bullet vibe (because like the majority of vagina-owners, I need clitoral stimulation to orgasm). September 15th is Vaginismus Awareness Day. I'm sharing this video because at the beginning of my sexual awakening, I often felt so confronted at the size of the dildos/enlarged penises in mainstream porn that I was scared away from penetration. It made my journey of healing from vaginismus that much harder because of the psychological barrier that built up. Most of my previous videos are penetration-free if that's something you'd like to watch one of those instead. Please feel free to reach out to me on my socials if you're struggling with vaginismus, I know I would've given anything to feel less alone through my healing ❤️ I'm also so excited for the MLNP Academy to launch so that others like me have a better place to learn.

As someone who only overcame vaginismus a year ago, penetration has not been in my repertoire until recently. This is the first time I've filmed myself exploring my holes and I enjoyed orgasming from both inside and outside with lots of squelchy sounds because lube is the best thing ever.

Another hotel room moment with some hand-held closeups and then grind all over the bed. This is still my favourite way to get myself off. And because this is #RealWorldSex, I have bug bites on my groin from the previous hotel :D

Hiking and hotel rooms make me horny, so this is a double whammy. Watch me stroke my clit, pulse my ass to orgasm and lick my fingers afterwards. It was nice and quiet so enjoy the breathing sounds too.

I tried on some new lingerie and stockings, and experimented with some poses for the camera while drinking my morning coffee. Unfortunately recording stopped part way through, but I captured some beautiful sensual moments. Here's a great playlist to accompany: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1EIhRYzW3RxOPD?si=4090591ae6154423

Nearing the end of my European holiday, I had a rare night in my own hotel room and couldn't wait to get loud as I brought myself over the edge.

I've been enjoying some intense moments with lovers lately so tried something a bit more gentle on my own. After a shower to warm myself up, I got out the massage oil and enjoyed caressing myself to an orgasm.. which wasn't quite as gentle in the end ;)

I had to do some gardening for a client who was on holidays, so naturally I wore lingerie under my work gear so I could reward my hard labour. This is the first time I reveal more of my face! It was such a turn-on wearing this lace blindfold that I'll keep using it from now on. This vid is quieter than usual because the neighbours were right next door. I hope this dose of summer sun warms you up wherever you are! I also want to thank everyone who has watched and commented on my videos so far. It feels so empowering to share myself with you all, and my first MLNP paycheck has allowed me to get some much needed chronic pain treatment. xoxo Fern

I found myself all alone on a hiking trail and a little bored... So I stopped for a wee and made the most of the partially secluded spot amongst the acacias.

Long time fantasy, first time going for it! I loved hearing my juices tinkle into the bath water and it got me so worked up, I was shaking by the end.