Good Squrls Don’t Cum

Let me tell you this was a long wank for me. I don’t know if it’s hormones or stress…but I have been struggling to orgasm completely for weeks. I thought “let’s put on the new collar/nipple rings and slap your clit around a bit”. And since I recently found this riding crop when I was decluttering, I figured I’d use it. I don’t know how much of it got left in, but I started fantasizing about orgasm control and start talking dirty to myself…Hehe

The sun was shining into my bedroom beautifully. It was inspiring lighting annd it made me want to create! I’m also training my anus for a monster of a plug that I bought not realizing the size. You can see how tight it is and how much I still have to go, and you can see my pretty pussy petals reaching toward the sun after I cum hard with the toy in my ass.

I had a very flirty dream I travelled to a city that one of my parasocial friends lives in and messaged them to meet up for dinner. During the dinner they started teasing me under the table by rubbing my thigh in front of all my friends. So naturally I had to masturbate and fantasize as soon as I woke up!

It’s love month! Starting it off by loving myself in the best way I know how ;) sometimes I really do turn myself on. That’s why I’m online I guess… to share with everyone - why would I gatekeep this sexiness? Looks like I’m going to need a new rose suction toy though :’( RIP

I decided to savour the quiet of having the apartment to myself in my favourite way. Me time!!! I was feeling overstimulated from having company, so I decided to overstimulate myself in a different way. The oui’d, mood lighting, and Magic Wand really helped. And I kind of enjoyed doing it and not having to take my clothes off!!! It didn’t change how good the orgasm felt. Grinding against the fabric of my underwear just built the feeling up and made me more desperate for that sweet release. Wrapping it all up with a few diaphragmatic breaths to bring my heart rate down, and a hug for myself just felt right.

I couldn’t get enough toys inside me this time. I wanted to feel fuller than full. All holes spread and plugged. I think I ruined my orgasm with my anal toy in because after I took the toy out of my ass I couldn’t get close anymore. *tear* would you punish me for that ruin or would you try harder to make me cum?

I went on a bit of a sex toy shopping spree and got myself some toys I’ve wanted for a while. But while I waited for those I went into a store and picked up some cute sale toys! Let me show them off here, as I love to do for you all!!! ;)

I've been in edging forums lately and I am really loving being part of that community. It's sexy and horny & self control and loss of control - all at once, all things great. I thought I'd try my hand at giving some (Jerk Off Instructions (JOI) to a long-distance edging buddy (LDEB). Instead of sending them porn or only moaning for their sake, I edged myself to an eventual orgasm. Along with the instructions, I sent my LDEB the pictures at the beginning of the video while giving them their JOI to help them reach their edge without sending them over it. With edging - for most, not all - the emphasis is not on the orgasm, but the built up pleasure experienced with the anticipation of orgasm. I made this video after day 6 of not cumming, and it was unreal! See for yourself. ;)

The toys I ordered last night arrived this afternoon! I, of course, had to bring them both out to at least show-and-tell. Then, to use the one I’ve been looking forward to the most. Basically - tribbing with the Demon Pussy. I can’t wait to do this more as I move into ushering and enacting my more sapphic side.

I decided to do some self care and get dressed up cute for fun, maybe reach out to a few of my FWBs to see if they’d want to come over since I was home alone. No such luck, but I didn’t want to waste the look so I kept the self-care going with my Lush 2 and my iPhone camera 😉