Honey, I'm home!

As I wrote in our social post, I am back in my beautiful and beloved South Africa for good. I miss sex profusely, so I got my vibrator out that I haven't used in years (Ivan's dick was always waaayyy better, so I didn't have that primordial craving to be filled). I make myself squirt creaminess again and then keep masturbating until I have a shuddering orgasm. We're in the middle of a bloody hot summer here (like, 40°c kind of hot), but luckily, the warm mountain wind always helps to cool us down, and as a bonus, turns me on so much with its freedom-whispering properties. I was next to a quiet road, and although I was mostly hidden, if someone had decided to round the corner, I would have been seen.

We just moved to a new place after a year in this cute little house. Ivan and I thought we would say goodbye to it and honour our beautiful memories by fucking all over the house and garden, in between all the packing. Boxes everywhere, dust on our skin, laughter and tenderness and heat in every room, what a perfect celebratory farewell, right? 😉 We were able to be a bit loud for a change too, what a relief. (also, have I mentioned yet how much we both really really really like standing sex?) But this is more than just a sexy goodbye. This June, my mom and I hope to join the Global March to Gaza—to walk in solidarity, call for the opening of the Rafah border, and bear witness with our own bodies. All proceeds from this video will help us get there. If you believe justice and pleasure go hand in hand—if you know the body is sacred ground for resistance—thank you for walking with us. Love and hope and kisses and lots of good fucks to you all. 😘😘😘

This isn’t like our usual videos (or maybe a bit like the one where we fucked on the bathroom floor). The quality and lighting is quite rough and I left it completely unedited. What you see is 100% real and raw. We’d been craving anal for weeks, but it always feels like too much prep when time is short. This weekend, though, we'd both been dreaming about it too long so we finally put in the effort. It was surprisingly easy (being horny helps!), intense, and so good. So good, in fact, that we didn't want to stop to film. But then, in the middle of it again, I decided I really did need to capture it, even if only for us to watch again. So we gathered every ounce of self-disciplined and stopped in the middle of it to set up the camera. In the end, it felt too hot not to share, just in case you could also take some pleasure from it. If you know us, you know we usually try to keep things quiet. Eleven years of motherhood taught me to control my sounds a lot. But anal doesn’t let me. With Ivan’s beautiful, giant cock inside my ass, I can’t help it - it feels like being split open and remade at once. Primal sounds escape me before I can stop them (sounds that I feel a bit shy about afterwards actually). It’s like all the frozen parts inside me are being stirred, broken up, and released. And then there’s my face in-between the fucking, looking very dreamy and even a little dorky, but also really showing the heavenly yumminess of anal with Ivan. Welcome to our intensity. Sex is powerful. And in my opinion, anal sex even more so.

- the Part where we keep the momentum from Part 1 going. We keep at it in the garden until Ivan cums in his beautifully spectacular way. Then later in the day we keep going, but this time on the table inside. Ivan keeps making Hadassah squirt (a lot more than in part 1 - at one point Ivan jokes that it feels like he's standing in a lake). We just felt very wrapped up in each other and in the glow of having so much bodily intensity in one day. We kept at it long after our camera batteries ran out, late into the night. This day really felt endless in the best way and we're happy to have it recorded. Have fun! ;)

A leisurely, spontaneous weekend afternoon session, filmed in our usual real-life way. There’s some construction noise in the background and a couple of interruptions, but that’s just part of the adventure of connecting through it all. This video is also special because it’s in response to a request asking for less editing and longer stretches in one position. So this time, I kept the edits minimal and let the positions play out naturally. You’ll see plenty of me on top, some face-riding, unhurried transitions and lots of Ivan giving those deep deliberate thrusts that keep me gasping (and him edging) the whole time.

Part 1 - The part in which we start off by smoking a joint in our garden, settling into the knowing that we are properly home alone, child-free. It's a glorious day, the birds singing in the background - fitting our exuberant and free mood. We go to our sex chair inside, just connecting a little, a bit awkward and silly in the beginning. We have some fun with massaging and then our mouths on each others' bodies. We move outside soon. Here, it starts getting more intense. We change positions often and take breaks because of the intensity. But this is how we roll - we go on for long, stare into each other's eyes and draw out our imminent orgasm and pleasure. Ivan makes Hadassah squirt for a short time (much more of that in the second part). Hadassah: when I met Ivan 5 years ago, I had only squirted once before in my life. He taught me a new way to squirt, (involving rubbing the dick against the pussy - something called kunyaza, a sexual practise that his culture teaches its men). About this day, my favourite part was the peaceful nature of it, how I could just breathe into connecting with Ivan, without distractions. I also love the urgency with which Ivan fucks me. Even in the moments in between, he never looses focus, it's so endearing and beautiful to me. This sex this day felt incredibly good. I felt like I could just take more and more and never get tired of it. Ivan: On this day, I was very excited and full of energy because it was our first time in weeks to be home alone. It was like all the suppressed feelings and energy I have for Hadassah would be able to be released with an equivalent intensity. We don't use our sex chair often, but when we do, I'm always reminded why I love it so much. I got to explore Hadassah's body more intimately with our entire bodies communicating to each other. It turns me on to look at Hadassah's sexy body while feeling the fresh air and looking at the nature around me. For me, this day felt like an intimate conversation between us and we had a lot to catch up on. We took our time, letting the mood shift from lighthearted and silly to something more intense—our chemistry undeniable. We fucked for super long, moving between the cottage and the garden, lost in each other. The heat built so much that we had to split it into two parts. In this part, we massage, fuck, kiss and squirt.

In our previous video, I shared that I was going to go to Egypt to join the Global March to Gaza. I did and I've been back for a week now and it's been heavy and hard. Both Ivan and I felt so disconnected from our bodies. We had almost no sex. But then mine came back in full swing and I was SO HORNY all of a sudden and Ivan was still not. I just kept masturbation, specifically this day. I realised in the middle of it that I could maybe film myself. I stopped, got the camera out, and here I am in my full horny glory for you to share in it. This time, I was absolutely imagining Ivan fucking me with that thick cock of his. Yummm.

We had been away from each other for a full week. We usually have a lot of sex because it is our most core way of connecting to each other. We couldn't wait to drink each other in as soon as we put our toddler down for his nap. He napped for a full 3 hours, we used this time *fully* and just couldn't stop. The thought of filming ourselves came up in the middle of it and so here we are sharing some passionate clips with you. ;)

Part two of our moving-day odyssey. This specific day (exactly where we left off with the previous video), we meant to pack, but we couldn’t leave each other alone. We figured it was such a beautiful way to say goodbye anyways, like a sensual and loving tribute to a space that held us through so much. Our hearts were full. This was our first home alone together (before, we used to live together with other partners). So perhaps it was this special knowing that made us extra horny and alive. We were just ourselves, fucking - on the couch, in the kids’ bedroom, standing, against things, wherever. There was even a gardener outside that day, so we kept half an ear open... but not enough to stop. And yes, we barely packed a thing. :D We just made love and gave thanks.

Here, I had been editing one of my other videos, and fucking on and off the whole day. Additionally, I was ovulating, which means I was bursting at the seams with horny-ness and sensuality. I wanted to be fucked and fucked, over and over, deeeeeply (still do). Thank you and amen. (someone knocked on the gate right at the end and the extra naughtiness it made me feel sent me over the last little edge) (if you want to read more: "this is not about sex. but maybe it is. maybe it's about the way we learn to undress our souls, to bare our tenderest parts to the world and let them be touched. to say, "this is who i am- alive, hungry, burning."" -by Christopher Sexton I want to tell you a little story about myself. I come from a very conservative background, growing up in purity culture - the Christian version of sexuality where we are taught as women that our bodies belong only to God or our husband or that any type of sexual pleasure outside of marriage is wrong. I've been deconstructing from Christianity for the past 6 years now. Having become polyamorous, I started remembering sex again - the raw animal-ness and power of it, how it makes us alive, how essentially creative it is. Being a mother to four, too, it's taken me a while to re-connect to the raw, innocent sexuality that I felt surging up as a young teenager, before I started suppressing these desires. I'm now convinced that this innocent, passionate sexual energy that awoke in me then was the real me that I am getting back to and uncovering now. I'm moving back into my body - feeling myself, breathing, expanding into my capacity for more and more pleasure. Watch me and join me as I continue to reconnect to my true essence, which is this pure, passionate burn for life.)