Sunlight and shadows - a morning quickie

As I wrote in our social post, I am back in my beautiful and beloved South Africa for good. I miss sex profusely, so I got my vibrator out that I haven't used in years (Ivan's dick was always waaayyy better, so I didn't have that primordial craving to be filled). I make myself squirt creaminess again and then keep masturbating until I have a shuddering orgasm. We're in the middle of a bloody hot summer here (like, 40°c kind of hot), but luckily, the warm mountain wind always helps to cool us down, and as a bonus, turns me on so much with its freedom-whispering properties. I was next to a quiet road, and although I was mostly hidden, if someone had decided to round the corner, I would have been seen.

This one was so spontaneous. I am feeling very embodied today. I find myself home alone, so I get the lovely idea of getting high all by myself. I started recording myself, just for the fun of it. Im not usually a lingerie person, but I figured I could just as well try on this new body suit and see what it does to me. This is what ensued. I felt extra close to sensuality and pleasure, my senses fired up and beckoning me with whispers of intensity building under my skin. I just feel enchanted by life today, how the beauty of it fills me when I empty myself. Like every little feel/sense/taste/smell/sight could plunge me into joy. This is my most vulnerable video yet: I prance around, I feel so cute, I flirt, my emotions flushing my chest and pussy, I show you a lot of detail… and for the first time ever, I make myself squirt. I imagined you watching, wanting, and oh, how I wanted you back. This is me. (music - because there is a construction site next to our house and also - an extra flare of drama can only be good. 😌)

This one goes like a story. It should really have been part one of our moving-odyssey. The others were spontaneous and unplanned. This one was intentional. It was how we meant to say goodbye to our house. We planned to wake early in the morning, before our toddler, and have sex out in the open on our trampoline. (But of course, life laughs at plans.) We made ourselves a cozy little duvet nest in the crisp morning air. Just as we settled in, our toddler woke up. He snuggled with us for a bit, then Ivan took him back inside to hopefully have some screen time, but of course he came bouncing back a few minutes later. So we did what all parents do and we rolled with it. =D We dropped him at school, and by the time we got back, the sun was properly out, the busy road already alive with its usual car-and-people rhythm. We lay down again, the sun warming our skin. But then the clouds started gathering while we were making out. It started raining softly. At first we thought it will pass, but very soon it started pouring. We played a little in the rain, and then we took the fun inside, with the storm going on outside. Life is always an adventure, how very exciting and beautiful to be alive. Come see what happened next. This might be our most epic video yet. Kisses to you all. Xxx

Here, I had been editing one of my other videos, and fucking on and off the whole day. Additionally, I was ovulating, which means I was bursting at the seams with horny-ness and sensuality. I wanted to be fucked and fucked, over and over, deeeeeply (still do). Thank you and amen. (someone knocked on the gate right at the end and the extra naughtiness it made me feel sent me over the last little edge) (if you want to read more: "this is not about sex. but maybe it is. maybe it's about the way we learn to undress our souls, to bare our tenderest parts to the world and let them be touched. to say, "this is who i am- alive, hungry, burning."" -by Christopher Sexton I want to tell you a little story about myself. I come from a very conservative background, growing up in purity culture - the Christian version of sexuality where we are taught as women that our bodies belong only to God or our husband or that any type of sexual pleasure outside of marriage is wrong. I've been deconstructing from Christianity for the past 6 years now. Having become polyamorous, I started remembering sex again - the raw animal-ness and power of it, how it makes us alive, how essentially creative it is. Being a mother to four, too, it's taken me a while to re-connect to the raw, innocent sexuality that I felt surging up as a young teenager, before I started suppressing these desires. I'm now convinced that this innocent, passionate sexual energy that awoke in me then was the real me that I am getting back to and uncovering now. I'm moving back into my body - feeling myself, breathing, expanding into my capacity for more and more pleasure. Watch me and join me as I continue to reconnect to my true essence, which is this pure, passionate burn for life.)

In our previous video, I shared that I was going to go to Egypt to join the Global March to Gaza. I did and I've been back for a week now and it's been heavy and hard. Both Ivan and I felt so disconnected from our bodies. We had almost no sex. But then mine came back in full swing and I was SO HORNY all of a sudden and Ivan was still not. I just kept masturbation, specifically this day. I realised in the middle of it that I could maybe film myself. I stopped, got the camera out, and here I am in my full horny glory for you to share in it. This time, I was absolutely imagining Ivan fucking me with that thick cock of his. Yummm.

Part two of our moving-day odyssey. This specific day (exactly where we left off with the previous video), we meant to pack, but we couldn’t leave each other alone. We figured it was such a beautiful way to say goodbye anyways, like a sensual and loving tribute to a space that held us through so much. Our hearts were full. This was our first home alone together (before, we used to live together with other partners). So perhaps it was this special knowing that made us extra horny and alive. We were just ourselves, fucking - on the couch, in the kids’ bedroom, standing, against things, wherever. There was even a gardener outside that day, so we kept half an ear open... but not enough to stop. And yes, we barely packed a thing. :D We just made love and gave thanks.

A very intimate, raw and spontaneous video of us passionately fucking on our bathroom floor. We put the phone down and forgot about it so the angles are weird and interesting. The kids were all home the weekend, so we tried to keep it quiet, but it was hard, because it was so so good. I feel like an absolute queen when Ivan shows up for me with such fullness and energy. We hope for you to enjoy our video and wish amazing juicy sex for all of you too. ❤️

Part 1 - The part in which we start off by smoking a joint in our garden, settling into the knowing that we are properly home alone, child-free. It's a glorious day, the birds singing in the background - fitting our exuberant and free mood. We go to our sex chair inside, just connecting a little, a bit awkward and silly in the beginning. We have some fun with massaging and then our mouths on each others' bodies. We move outside soon. Here, it starts getting more intense. We change positions often and take breaks because of the intensity. But this is how we roll - we go on for long, stare into each other's eyes and draw out our imminent orgasm and pleasure. Ivan makes Hadassah squirt for a short time (much more of that in the second part). Hadassah: when I met Ivan 5 years ago, I had only squirted once before in my life. He taught me a new way to squirt, (involving rubbing the dick against the pussy - something called kunyaza, a sexual practise that his culture teaches its men). About this day, my favourite part was the peaceful nature of it, how I could just breathe into connecting with Ivan, without distractions. I also love the urgency with which Ivan fucks me. Even in the moments in between, he never looses focus, it's so endearing and beautiful to me. This sex this day felt incredibly good. I felt like I could just take more and more and never get tired of it. Ivan: On this day, I was very excited and full of energy because it was our first time in weeks to be home alone. It was like all the suppressed feelings and energy I have for Hadassah would be able to be released with an equivalent intensity. We don't use our sex chair often, but when we do, I'm always reminded why I love it so much. I got to explore Hadassah's body more intimately with our entire bodies communicating to each other. It turns me on to look at Hadassah's sexy body while feeling the fresh air and looking at the nature around me. For me, this day felt like an intimate conversation between us and we had a lot to catch up on. We took our time, letting the mood shift from lighthearted and silly to something more intense—our chemistry undeniable. We fucked for super long, moving between the cottage and the garden, lost in each other. The heat built so much that we had to split it into two parts. In this part, we massage, fuck, kiss and squirt.

This is a real look into the sex life of two people who are wildly into each other... and also parents. The kids were home this weekend and we got interrupted a lot. Around the 13-minute mark, one of them even knocks loudly (🤣)—we both get a fright mid-thrust. This is how it goes - chaotic, real and a little comic. You’ll also see us watching the videos we’d just taken of ourselves, right in the middle of all the restarting and foreplay. Each time we restarted, though, the chemistry is always still there. We stayed horny, stayed connected. I so deeply appreciate all the body wisdom that Ivan introduced me to. His beautifully simple and shameless view of sex has changed everything for me. Through him, I’ve come to know just how powerful, and even healing, sex can be. We’ve been together for 5 years, and we’ve learned that, for us, staying connected through our bodies matters more than words. With our different cultures and neither of us speaking English as a first language, words can trip us up—but sex brings us back to each other. We really hope you, too, get to feel this kind of sweetness in your skin, your breath, your core. (Also, isn't the birdsong in the background just lovely? Just a little gift from our life here in East Africa.😘)

... but when honey's not home, I please myself and my soft pussy.