Sunlight and shadows - a morning quickie

In our previous video, I shared that I was going to go to Egypt to join the Global March to Gaza. I did and I've been back for a week now and it's been heavy and hard. Both Ivan and I felt so disconnected from our bodies. We had almost no sex. But then mine came back in full swing and I was SO HORNY all of a sudden and Ivan was still not. I just kept masturbation, specifically this day. I realised in the middle of it that I could maybe film myself. I stopped, got the camera out, and here I am in my full horny glory for you to share in it. This time, I was absolutely imagining Ivan fucking me with that thick cock of his. Yummm.

Here, I had been editing one of my other videos, and fucking on and off the whole day. Additionally, I was ovulating, which means I was bursting at the seams with horny-ness and sensuality. I wanted to be fucked and fucked, over and over, deeeeeply (still do). Thank you and amen. (someone knocked on the gate right at the end and the extra naughtiness it made me feel sent me over the last little edge) (if you want to read more: "this is not about sex. but maybe it is. maybe it's about the way we learn to undress our souls, to bare our tenderest parts to the world and let them be touched. to say, "this is who i am- alive, hungry, burning."" -by Christopher Sexton I want to tell you a little story about myself. I come from a very conservative background, growing up in purity culture - the Christian version of sexuality where we are taught as women that our bodies belong only to God or our husband or that any type of sexual pleasure outside of marriage is wrong. I've been deconstructing from Christianity for the past 6 years now. Having become polyamorous, I started remembering sex again - the raw animal-ness and power of it, how it makes us alive, how essentially creative it is. Being a mother to four, too, it's taken me a while to re-connect to the raw, innocent sexuality that I felt surging up as a young teenager, before I started suppressing these desires. I'm now convinced that this innocent, passionate sexual energy that awoke in me then was the real me that I am getting back to and uncovering now. I'm moving back into my body - feeling myself, breathing, expanding into my capacity for more and more pleasure. Watch me and join me as I continue to reconnect to my true essence, which is this pure, passionate burn for life.)

We just moved to a new place after a year in this cute little house. Ivan and I thought we would say goodbye to it and honour our beautiful memories by fucking all over the house and garden, in between all the packing. Boxes everywhere, dust on our skin, laughter and tenderness and heat in every room, what a perfect celebratory farewell, right? 😉 We were able to be a bit loud for a change too, what a relief. (also, have I mentioned yet how much we both really really really like standing sex?) But this is more than just a sexy goodbye. This June, my mom and I hope to join the Global March to Gaza—to walk in solidarity, call for the opening of the Rafah border, and bear witness with our own bodies. All proceeds from this video will help us get there. If you believe justice and pleasure go hand in hand—if you know the body is sacred ground for resistance—thank you for walking with us. Love and hope and kisses and lots of good fucks to you all. 😘😘😘

This is our second video on MLNP. We're again using the time our toddler is napping to get as much of each other as possible. =) We are used to getting interrupted a lot, like you'll see in this video, but it mostly just makes our longing and passion for each other grow. H: In this video, I love the way Ivan is so invested in making love to me and how present he is. He just melts me with his intensity and incredible hotness. Particularly, I never knew the way he looks at me and I'm so moved to see it here. I love the close ups in this video because of how much I like to see Mugisha's beautiful dick in my pussy. M: While making love to Pallua, I feel the deep way she is connected to me, I feel her kindness and beauty. The urge for our intimacy can never diminish but only grow because we have so little time and it so precious to me. PS. The quality of the video does get better. We started with the wrong camera.

This one was so spontaneous. I am feeling very embodied today. I find myself home alone, so I get the lovely idea of getting high all by myself. I started recording myself, just for the fun of it. Im not usually a lingerie person, but I figured I could just as well try on this new body suit and see what it does to me. This is what ensued. I felt extra close to sensuality and pleasure, my senses fired up and beckoning me with whispers of intensity building under my skin. I just feel enchanted by life today, how the beauty of it fills me when I empty myself. Like every little feel/sense/taste/smell/sight could plunge me into joy. This is my most vulnerable video yet: I prance around, I feel so cute, I flirt, my emotions flushing my chest and pussy, I show you a lot of detail… and for the first time ever, I make myself squirt. I imagined you watching, wanting, and oh, how I wanted you back. This is me. (music - because there is a construction site next to our house and also - an extra flare of drama can only be good. 😌)

Part 1 - The part in which we start off by smoking a joint in our garden, settling into the knowing that we are properly home alone, child-free. It's a glorious day, the birds singing in the background - fitting our exuberant and free mood. We go to our sex chair inside, just connecting a little, a bit awkward and silly in the beginning. We have some fun with massaging and then our mouths on each others' bodies. We move outside soon. Here, it starts getting more intense. We change positions often and take breaks because of the intensity. But this is how we roll - we go on for long, stare into each other's eyes and draw out our imminent orgasm and pleasure. Ivan makes Hadassah squirt for a short time (much more of that in the second part). Hadassah: when I met Ivan 5 years ago, I had only squirted once before in my life. He taught me a new way to squirt, (involving rubbing the dick against the pussy - something called kunyaza, a sexual practise that his culture teaches its men). About this day, my favourite part was the peaceful nature of it, how I could just breathe into connecting with Ivan, without distractions. I also love the urgency with which Ivan fucks me. Even in the moments in between, he never looses focus, it's so endearing and beautiful to me. This sex this day felt incredibly good. I felt like I could just take more and more and never get tired of it. Ivan: On this day, I was very excited and full of energy because it was our first time in weeks to be home alone. It was like all the suppressed feelings and energy I have for Hadassah would be able to be released with an equivalent intensity. We don't use our sex chair often, but when we do, I'm always reminded why I love it so much. I got to explore Hadassah's body more intimately with our entire bodies communicating to each other. It turns me on to look at Hadassah's sexy body while feeling the fresh air and looking at the nature around me. For me, this day felt like an intimate conversation between us and we had a lot to catch up on. We took our time, letting the mood shift from lighthearted and silly to something more intense—our chemistry undeniable. We fucked for super long, moving between the cottage and the garden, lost in each other. The heat built so much that we had to split it into two parts. In this part, we massage, fuck, kiss and squirt.

As I wrote in our social post, I am back in my beautiful and beloved South Africa for good. I miss sex profusely, so I got my vibrator out that I haven't used in years (Ivan's dick was always waaayyy better, so I didn't have that primordial craving to be filled). I make myself squirt creaminess again and then keep masturbating until I have a shuddering orgasm. We're in the middle of a bloody hot summer here (like, 40°c kind of hot), but luckily, the warm mountain wind always helps to cool us down, and as a bonus, turns me on so much with its freedom-whispering properties. I was next to a quiet road, and although I was mostly hidden, if someone had decided to round the corner, I would have been seen.

... but when honey's not home, I please myself and my soft pussy.

- the Part where we keep the momentum from Part 1 going. We keep at it in the garden until Ivan cums in his beautifully spectacular way. Then later in the day we keep going, but this time on the table inside. Ivan keeps making Hadassah squirt (a lot more than in part 1 - at one point Ivan jokes that it feels like he's standing in a lake). We just felt very wrapped up in each other and in the glow of having so much bodily intensity in one day. We kept at it long after our camera batteries ran out, late into the night. This day really felt endless in the best way and we're happy to have it recorded. Have fun! ;)

A leisurely, spontaneous weekend afternoon session, filmed in our usual real-life way. There’s some construction noise in the background and a couple of interruptions, but that’s just part of the adventure of connecting through it all. This video is also special because it’s in response to a request asking for less editing and longer stretches in one position. So this time, I kept the edits minimal and let the positions play out naturally. You’ll see plenty of me on top, some face-riding, unhurried transitions and lots of Ivan giving those deep deliberate thrusts that keep me gasping (and him edging) the whole time.