The one where I play with my nipples

As someone who only overcame vaginismus a year ago, penetration has not been in my repertoire until recently. This is the first time I've filmed myself exploring my holes and I enjoyed orgasming from both inside and outside with lots of squelchy sounds because lube is the best thing ever.

This is the little dildo that came as part of a pegging set, and I was curious to see how it could be used in other ways. You'll see me trying it for the first time; playing around with different angles and positions until I find what feels good with the help of my trusty bullet vibe (because like the majority of vagina-owners, I need clitoral stimulation to orgasm). September 15th is Vaginismus Awareness Day. I'm sharing this video because at the beginning of my sexual awakening, I often felt so confronted at the size of the dildos/enlarged penises in mainstream porn that I was scared away from penetration. It made my journey of healing from vaginismus that much harder because of the psychological barrier that built up. Most of my previous videos are penetration-free if that's something you'd like to watch one of those instead. Please feel free to reach out to me on my socials if you're struggling with vaginismus, I know I would've given anything to feel less alone through my healing ❤️ I'm also so excited for the MLNP Academy to launch so that others like me have a better place to learn.

On a relaxed Sunday afternoon, I was feeling rather sensual and enjoyed playing around in some of my favourite positions until I came VERY intensely. It felt extra special looking out the window knowing anyone could see me... and making eye contact with you ;)

What started as a little play turned into more – and the first time I fully show my face! The action is handheld for the first half, so be prepared for a slightly bumpy ride ;)

I wore my WeVibe around the house all morning, flicking it on and off until I couldn't take it anymore. Enjoy this quickie as I bring myself over the edge.

I tried on some new lingerie and stockings, and experimented with some poses for the camera while drinking my morning coffee. Unfortunately recording stopped part way through, but I captured some beautiful sensual moments. Here's a great playlist to accompany: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/37i9dQZF1EIhRYzW3RxOPD?si=4090591ae6154423

I challenged myself to let out my exhibitionist side at the hotel sauna. Be the voyeur who catches me as I start out shyly and become more bold, with only a glass door separating me from passers-by. I've removed background music for copyright reasons, so I suggest this spicy playlist as the perfect soundtrack: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3bEwf6LmbHAlTAaGnwpRkA?si=f5b4767caba64f3a

I celebrated the beginning of spring by enjoying some sun by the pool. My book was soon discarded as I got distracted by what was going on between my legs. I could hear the neighbours working in their gardens all around me which added to the thrill. Watch to see how wet I got!

I had to do some gardening for a client who was on holidays, so naturally I wore lingerie under my work gear so I could reward my hard labour. This is the first time I reveal more of my face! It was such a turn-on wearing this lace blindfold that I'll keep using it from now on. This vid is quieter than usual because the neighbours were right next door. I hope this dose of summer sun warms you up wherever you are! I also want to thank everyone who has watched and commented on my videos so far. It feels so empowering to share myself with you all, and my first MLNP paycheck has allowed me to get some much needed chronic pain treatment. xoxo Fern

I took some time to really focus my senses on my body – delighting in the shape of my feet, my fingertips grazing my calves, sucking on my fingers, playing with the water temperature gushing onto my pussy. Make sure you watch the intro where I share some real world sex sounds to listen out for :P