A Christmas Gift

This was a tough one for me to even consider filming. It was a huge first step in offering personal vulnerabilities in filming a solo video. It's one thing to film with your lover, but it's another thing to film solo. All the attention would be on me. With an overarching sense of nervousness, it was mentally hard to get things... well hard. So I started going through some sexy moment's in my head. Memories that get me going, and the shyness went away, and the pleasure started. Enjoy my mental game.

This is our first video. Well, the first video we are going to publicly share, that is. We have been married for 13 years, and we were both virgins when we got married. We would love to say that we blissfully enjoyed all these years of physical relationship with each other, but the truth is, we are just now coming into our own sexually. Both of us were brought up in very religious homes, there was just a lot of sexual repression due to the "sin" associated with most sexual acts, apart from sex inside of marriage. The true sexual awakening for both of us has been happening over the last couple of years. We are finding new ways to engage each other, while figuring out new expectations for what a truly free and healthy relationship looks like from a sexual perspective. We don't always arrive at the same outcome, but the good news is that we are giving each other space to discover our truest sexual selves, and we both feel great about it. So being apart of this community for us represents a piece of that exploration, so we hope you enjoy being part of the journey.

Getaway Surprise Andre decided to surprise me with an evening in our city- our favorite hotel, dinner at our favorite spot and the symphony! He arranged childcare for the kiddo and whisked me away to an evening with just the two of us- a sweet and thoughtful romantic gesture that we both needed! Life gets so busy so often and sometimes we just need those moments alone to sit and reflect and laugh and enjoy a beautiful evening of delicious food, tasty drinks, music and one another! The getaway was pretty special. And he thought to bring some camera equipment just in case the mood hit, which it did! Something about that perfect light in this fancy hotel, the amazing bed and two naked humans who are genuinely in love with each other made for a great love session. We don’t have that perfect rom-com love where there is no fighting or frustrations, but our love allows us to be imperfect and yet have moments where we are just there for each other, taking the time to enjoy one another in the best ways.

Andre has been traveling for work quite a bit and he and I have been working on staying connected while we are physically apart. It is a challenge to say the least, especially when the days are long for both of us, living and working in separate cities. Technology certainly helps and we have found that masterbating over FaceTime has been a fun and sexy way for us to have some intimacy while he is on the road. This particular day, I woke up early and was horny. I knew that we were going to make space and time for each other later in the day, but I thought it would be fun to go ahead and send Andre a few sexy videos to wake up to… so i grabbed the phone, a tripod and let my fingers do the rest. It certainly started the day off right for me and I think it did for Andre too.

An afternoon moment where we had uninterrupted time and new phones to test out the video quality- sold! Enjoy a POV look at sexy time with Andre and Lynn. Yes, there are the typical mishaps that happen during our sex (always with the batteries on the vibrators!), but this video gives a little glimpse of our more lighthearted sexual side, with a little less pressure than the usual production of all of the cameras. And bonus- we got a great view from our full length mirror while we did it!

Sometimes you have the perfect trip planned out- a true romantic weekend getaway. It’s amazing how in an instant, all of that can go away with a handful of comments between the two of us. We were silent the entire drive there, silent checking into our hotel, silent at dinner, minus the handful of tears. So much for the perfect romantic weekend. But Lynn and I have been together for a very long time. 19 years. So we know how to talk things through. We forgave each other and made up. Then we MADE UP. We wore each other out emotionally, so our romp had an over night break. Witness the softness of our make up, and the subtle touches and sudden orgasms.

Growing up in a Christian conservative household greatly impacted my view of masturbation and sex in general. There was no education about self-love because it fell in the category of “it is wrong, don’t do it”. And so I am just now as an adult, married woman, starting to understand the importance of taking this time for me- not only to understand what is enjoyable and brings me pleasure in sex, but to prioritize my time for this activity that is 100% about me. I am beginning to work through my past to help my present and my future and a big piece of that is saying yes to self-love on a regular basis. And this morning, I invited Andre to do a little filming...He gave me this toy for Valentine’s Day last year and I am just now starting to use it by myself. Last year’s V-Day gift vibe has never been used by itself. Now that’s changing.

Andre was working on our most recent video in our studio and I was horny, so I did what I love to do to him - tease and distract him. I texted him that I was coming down to visit, and by the time I got there, he had his cameras set up and ready to go. Fun for me. Fun for him. Fun for everyone.

Sometimes you go on a trip for your birthday and you just get spoiled and pampered. This time around Lynn was pulling out the birthday pleasures for me. She even put on some of Cindy Gallops boss bitch MLNP red lipstick to spread around in other places. Enjoy these birthday delights like I have.

Bathed in the pink glow, Andre and I set out to capture a Valentine’s Day moment. It ended up not going perfectly, as sometimes happens with sex, and we ended up being slow to get this one published, but we are excited to share our sweet time together- my favorite way to orgasm- being fingered- with Andre caressing and loving me in the ways that make my skin tingle and my heart melt.