A Christmas Gift

Growing up in a Christian conservative household greatly impacted my view of masturbation and sex in general. There was no education about self-love because it fell in the category of “it is wrong, don’t do it”. And so I am just now as an adult, married woman, starting to understand the importance of taking this time for me- not only to understand what is enjoyable and brings me pleasure in sex, but to prioritize my time for this activity that is 100% about me. I am beginning to work through my past to help my present and my future and a big piece of that is saying yes to self-love on a regular basis. And this morning, I invited Andre to do a little filming...He gave me this toy for Valentine’s Day last year and I am just now starting to use it by myself. Last year’s V-Day gift vibe has never been used by itself. Now that’s changing.

Andre was on a call and I was feeling horny. I decided to have a little fun time by myself. I needed a position change, so I scooted into the sunroom and Andre discovered me there. He added a helping hand and it was so delicious.

This is our first video. Well, the first video we are going to publicly share, that is. We have been married for 13 years, and we were both virgins when we got married. We would love to say that we blissfully enjoyed all these years of physical relationship with each other, but the truth is, we are just now coming into our own sexually. Both of us were brought up in very religious homes, there was just a lot of sexual repression due to the "sin" associated with most sexual acts, apart from sex inside of marriage. The true sexual awakening for both of us has been happening over the last couple of years. We are finding new ways to engage each other, while figuring out new expectations for what a truly free and healthy relationship looks like from a sexual perspective. We don't always arrive at the same outcome, but the good news is that we are giving each other space to discover our truest sexual selves, and we both feel great about it. So being apart of this community for us represents a piece of that exploration, so we hope you enjoy being part of the journey.

We started a leisure-filled morning with a little breakfast and coffee. As we soaked up the morning views from our favorite room (the sunroom), we also got a little silly and sexual. Sometimes pleasure comes from taking time individually, so while a little vibrator action got started, the camera came out and we captured a fun session of caressing, clit stimulation, dick slapping and a little anal exploration.

Bathed in the pink glow, Andre and I set out to capture a Valentine’s Day moment. It ended up not going perfectly, as sometimes happens with sex, and we ended up being slow to get this one published, but we are excited to share our sweet time together- my favorite way to orgasm- being fingered- with Andre caressing and loving me in the ways that make my skin tingle and my heart melt.

Sometimes you have the perfect trip planned out- a true romantic weekend getaway. It’s amazing how in an instant, all of that can go away with a handful of comments between the two of us. We were silent the entire drive there, silent checking into our hotel, silent at dinner, minus the handful of tears. So much for the perfect romantic weekend. But Lynn and I have been together for a very long time. 19 years. So we know how to talk things through. We forgave each other and made up. Then we MADE UP. We wore each other out emotionally, so our romp had an over night break. Witness the softness of our make up, and the subtle touches and sudden orgasms.

It was a tough away work trip but I knew I would have some solid moments to myself, so I packed my go pro and a little bag of sexy treats for my pleasure. I have been practicing self pleasure without outside stimulation with the idea of simply turning myself on because I am sexy. I am the source of my erotic life and I want to indulge in me. I was worn ragged at work, but it was my last morning and my start time was the afternoon so I had some time to be sexy. I grabbed my supplies, set up the camera, and also set up my phone so I could watch myself through the camera. This has taken a lot practice for me to work through this idea as I dislike my body on camera. But through therapy and practice, this is and can be such a great turn on. What wasn’t a turn on was forgetting my lube. I didn’t let it stop me. I kept calm and stroked on to a full body orgasm.

After teasing each other all day, we wanted a mid day quickie. This means no usual camera set ups and that it had to be a phone. Well, we were primed and horny so we did what we could by enjoying each others flirts and arousal. Not every time has to be an elaborate time.

Andre has been traveling for work quite a bit and he and I have been working on staying connected while we are physically apart. It is a challenge to say the least, especially when the days are long for both of us, living and working in separate cities. Technology certainly helps and we have found that masterbating over FaceTime has been a fun and sexy way for us to have some intimacy while he is on the road. This particular day, I woke up early and was horny. I knew that we were going to make space and time for each other later in the day, but I thought it would be fun to go ahead and send Andre a few sexy videos to wake up to… so i grabbed the phone, a tripod and let my fingers do the rest. It certainly started the day off right for me and I think it did for Andre too.

An afternoon moment where we had uninterrupted time and new phones to test out the video quality- sold! Enjoy a POV look at sexy time with Andre and Lynn. Yes, there are the typical mishaps that happen during our sex (always with the batteries on the vibrators!), but this video gives a little glimpse of our more lighthearted sexual side, with a little less pressure than the usual production of all of the cameras. And bonus- we got a great view from our full length mirror while we did it!